Remember when you were in high school and you first started falling in love? Your stomach would flutter, your heart would race and you may or may not stumble on your words. All at the sight of this magnificent steed.
When I first fell in love, I literally couldn’t focus on anything. I just wanted to talk on the phone all night, send love emails (yes, I am dating myself), spend time together, hold hands, make out, and dream of our future life together.
I’m once again falling in love.
But not with another person…. with starting a business. Starting a business is a lot like falling in love. It consumes your free time and brain activity. It’s all you can think about, talk about, and dream about. I’m seriously planning my business and I’s future together.
Yet, this has all led me to certain realizations in my professional life. And frankly, I have some confessions to make.
Confession 1: Being a female in business is freaking hard.
Business has historically been very much an “old boy’s club.” It’s changing. Thank God. But that doesn’t mean it’s fully changed. Look at the number of female CEO’s of Fortune 500 companies– less than 5%! This means women have to work harder, grind more, and hustle harder than men.
Confession 2: My personal life isn’t as important as my business.
Do I feel bad? Sure. My family, friends, fiance and dog mean the world to me. Thankfully, I have have a great support system and they understand that for a period of time in my life, this is my focus.
Confession 3: I have no balance in life.
I have strong feeling about balance in life. I think it’s a crap ploy to get people to buy into this unattainable level of perfection. When you have a goal, your vision is focused on getting this accomplished. When I decide on a goal, I get laser focused vision. I don’t see anything else in my life. If you are training for a competition, there is going to be a period of time that you are out of balance in life. Get over it.
Confession 4: I have trust issues.
Like seriously big trust issues. I insist on creating my own website, my own marketing materials, my own business strategy, blah blah blah. Basically, I do it all. But these are all symptoms of a deeper root. I don’t like to trust people. I put up a wall and guard it with my life. Why? Because people can suck. I try to surround myself with like minded, positive, motivational, and crazy successful people. Try to go find 5 of these A-team friends. It’s hard! There are more haters in the world than lovers. Many people cannot truly appreciate your successes, celebrate your happiness, and bring good things into your life. They get envious of your successes, rain your parade and share their negative mindsets. Knowing that there are more zombies than people in the world (like my Walking Dead reference?), leads me to being very very selective about the information I share, the friends I make, and the time I spend with people. Why would you share your deepest thoughts and dreams with just anyone? This is a trust level that not everyone deserves access to.
Confession 5: My blog sucks.
This one I’m sorry for. 😦 I love you all enjoy writing and sharing my random thoughts; but as I mentioned earlier I don’t believe in balance and sadly, my blogging has been affected by this. So yes, my blog is probably borderline sucky lately and now you all know why.
These are my confessions.